What does my handwriting say about me?

Hello!

Aha XD , the entry title today is so long and quite literal, I can't think of shorter post title ...

Today is such a boring day. We're in the middle of December, the school holiday month. And I'm rotting at home with my siblings without doing anything exciting while my friends and classmates are going to vacation with their families, motivation camps, studying for SPM next year, going to tuition classes and preparing for celebrations. Whew... if only I have a social life. That's so embarrassing, to be honest. I tell myself that I should be studying for the whole month of December, but it's already mid December and I haven't open a single page yet! When was the last time I touched my stationery?

All of my classmates have received Form 5 textbooks yesterday, and I haven't. I didn't go to school yesterday because I had a fever and I was so tired. My friends can start studying for next year from now, and there's another two weeks and a half before school starts, but I can't start studying. I'll get my Form 5 textbooks on the day school reopen, and I pictured that day to be a hectic day! Next year's gonna be a big and tough year for me but it's going to be worth it for my future hopefully, Amin! Maybe I should start doing revision for Form 4 topics while I wait for school to reopen, since I did pretty terribly in my final exams... Haish! I got this.

Okay, back to the topic. My primary school Science teacher once said, your handwriting says a lot about you and your personality, I can read your personality and what type of student you are from it. And I think about it a lot... Betul ke eh? How? His statement piqued my curiosity, and I googled about it today because I randomly remembered about his statement while taking a bath this morning. I was so bored, and I stumbled upon this amazing article by Business Insider here , titled What your handwriting says about you, and I did a quick analysis LOL ... You guys should read that article too!


I've noticed that most of the nerdy girls in class have a really neat, and round handwriting. Their handwriting are so neat that I even wondered sometimes, "Hey, dorang punya tulisan ni macam font computer lah! Sama and teratur je, gila lah!" Hahaha... Kalau buat nota, nak baca pun sedap je mata memandang. Mesti dorang ni tulis slow slow kan? I love borrowing and reading their notes sometimes, it's much easier to read their notes than making one by yourself LOL... Their chemistry and biology notes are so neat, it's like a bullet journal. I searched for some bullet journal inspo on Pinterest, and it all look the same as my girl classmates' notes! I wonder berapa lama masa yang dorang spend to write their school notes everyday. My lazy uninspired arse could never!

Picture : Bullet Journal Inspiration. Credit to Pinterest

Picture : Bullet Journal Inspiration. Credit to Pinterest

Meanwhile, my boy classmates naturally have a sloppy, messy handwriting. The boy who sat next to me in class for example, has a very carefree handwriting, our Bahasa Melayu teacher even complained about it last time. But I noticed that boys with this messy handwriting are usually the genius asses, especially in Mathematics. Also they are usually Maths, History and English teacher fave students. That's just my theory anyway. My best friend Hanita once said, "You can't be smart, genius af and have a nice handwriting, that's just the law lah..." Lol I agree. Dorang selalu panggil tulisan tu as tulisan doktor. Doktor selalunya tulis laju laju sebab nak cepat, that's my theory AHAHAHA! Also kan, famous celebrities and personalities, jarang ada tulisan yang kemas. That's just my observation, but try la google handwriting orang orang and tokoh femes semua tu kalau nak tengok.


Meanwhile the smart and genius, passive kids in class, boys and girls, usually have a cursive handwriting. Tulisan dorang ni memang cantik sangat, and very pleasing to my eyes, but sometimes I can't even read them! LOL... I noticed that most of them are just quiet in class, but selalu dapat high position dalam exam, quiz dalam kelas etc etc, BUT mereka ni bukan jenis yang pendiam macam tu je. That's just my observation. Bila English teacher suruh debate, ternganga dengar dorang bercakap. Hujah diorang semua,,, wow! Tu lah orang cakap, orang berilmu lagi banyak diam. Cikgu dulu pernah cakap kat kelas, jangan jadi macam tin kosong. Tin kosong, kalau kena sepak, bunyi dia lagi kuat dan nyaring daripada tin yang berisi, kan? Lagi banyak orang tu bercakap, merapu, merepek meraban apa semua, lagi terserlah kejahilan dia. Lebih baik diam. That's a really wise word by my Standard 5 Science Teacher. Much to think about...

Begitulah perumpamaan untuk orang yang berilmu. Orang yang berilmu itu ibarat resmi padi, semakin berisi semakin tunduk dan tidak bercakap seolah-olah dia lebih bagus ataupun sentiasa betul daripada orang lain. Begitulah perumpamaan kata Imam As-Syafie iaitu 'Semakin aku belajar, semakin terserlah kejahilanku'. 

Copied from a random post on Facebook.

Meanwhile, my handwriting? I've had some classmates that tell me that my handwriting are pretty and nice, but I don't think so to be honest. I showed my Sejarah paper to my mom last month and she said otherwise. She said my handwriting is not very neat and hard to read because it's slanted, quite cursive and not round enough. Yup, my handwriting are not cursive, but it's right-slanted. My mom likes round handwriting better.And I personally found that my handwriting's kinda sloppy (it really depends on my mood, that's why its really sloppy and carefree most of the time) and I don't really like it. And I think, personally, my blog font is so pretty. I want that as my handwriting, LOL. It's my favourite font, called Short Stack. If I had that handwriting, I won't stop writing XD . 

So, what does my handwriting say about me?

Size of letters and words.

Well, tulisan aku besar ke kecik sebenarnya? I've seen much smaller handwriting than mine, actually banyak jugak dalam kelas. But, my handwriting is not that big either. Tak pernah pun cikgu kata tulisan aku besar ke apa. Just medium sized, senang nak baca. Well, let's do both.

• You want to feel understood and noticed. Yup, pretty much. This is so true, but my handwriting is not that big.
• You're people oriented. Umm.. Not really. I like making new friends, knowing new people and learning about their personality, but the truth is, I suck at it. I'm not good at making new friends. Minat tak semestinya pandai??? Uhh...
• You have a strong focus and concentration. Well, this might be true. I have a strong focus and can't be easily distracted. That's what make me feel dumb, especially when I paid full attention in Math and Chemistry class and still don't get what I'm learning. Maybe I'm just a slow learner, I suppose.
• You're introverted. This is very true. I suck at expressing myself even though I want to be noticed and stand out. I have insecurities and I tend to shut myself down instead of expressing myself. I'm better off like that

Slant.

Well, my handwriting is right slanted. Let's see what does it say about me.

• You're heart-centered, friendly, sentimental, impulsive. I agree. This so so true especially the heart-centered and sentimental part. 
• You highly value friends and family.

Pressure.

Ahh, this is difficult. The pressure in my handwriting changes according to my mood at the moment, LMAO.. Can we do both?

So it says I'm an emotional person, I feel things and emotions very intensely and can be quick to react. This is 100% true about me, no doubt about it. 

For light pressure, it says I move easily from place to place, and you don't wear yourself out emotionally. See how polarizing that is? I think sometimes I just don't care or don't give a darn about something that means nothing to me. You really be at peace when you don't care

Upper zone

I'ts looped. What does it say about me :

• You have big hopes and dreams for the future.You're sensitive to criticism and might be paranoid. This is so true and I hated part of me for being sensitive to criticism. Constructive criticism is really important for me to keep up the good work and I really need it. But I'm sensitive sometimes, when I try my best in something and people still find it's lacking of something. I disliked that part of myself. I should actually be thankful for every constructive criticism that I've got in my life, it's really important for me to improve myself.

Lower zone 

It's slender.

• You are selective in who you called good friend. Yup, really. I only talk to fewer than 10 close friends everyday in my life outside of my family (at school etc). I let a few people into my life, when I did so, I did. All of my close friends, I admire and adore each one of them, they left a huge mark in my life. I'm not easily swayed by people and trends, but I'm influenced by them, a lot.

Connection of letters.

• You are intelligent and intuitive. LOL, really ah?

Dotted i's

• You don't like clutter.
• You pay great attention to details.

Crossed t's

• You aim low and have strong insecurities. Haiz! I feel personally attacked, I've been called out, Haha!

Line spacing - Little spacing

• You have a poor time management. Aiyoo... Why is this so true? I do whatever I like, I don't even have timetables, I do whatever I want in my mind, but I actually do have idea what my days are going to be like. I planned them in my head LMAO... But still, poor time management.

Also, this is another article about messy handwriting that I found very interesting to read, and I agree with all of them. But I don't have much time to write about it and I think I've wrote a lot. As a reader, I found long posts as boring. But this article is personal, and I write it for me to read in the future and to express myself, so it's okay. Ciao! <3 <3 <3 Have a nice day I love you!!

Hola!

Yawss!

I just remembered my pass to this blog. I created this blog in late 2013 when I was 10 and I started writing blogs since then. I wrote my blogs daily, I treated my blog as my own online diary (because I'm too lazy to write an actual diary due to my tragic handwriting and my inconsistency LOL) so I would write everything that crosses my mind back then. This blog was a private personal blog, I set it to be a private blog (where only authors can read the blog) so that I can be the only reader of the nonsensical shit that I wrote here!

Somehow, I remembered about the existence of this blog last month and I really feel like I want to start writing again. But I can't remember the pass to this blog until I miraculously remembered the pass to my old social media accounts earlier this morning! YAY! I can finally start writing again LMAO!

Reading back my old posts was so embarrassing. They're all so cringe-worthy and funny though! I deleted all of them today with a heavy heart, but I had to do so if I want to make this blog accessible to public (even though I'm pretty sure no one will read this blog LOL XD)... I had almost 200 posts written by me, and I have no idea that I was that active! They are all so embarrassing to read. I've only used this blog for 11 months back then. I used to write my blogs almost everyday because I know that no one can read it and my sister won't find anything I've wrote on this blog... 11 year old me was so traumatized when my family found my diary and read it LMAO... They should have respect my privacy anyway but that's old story, I really hope they won't remember anything they have read.

I want to start writing again, so I can know myself better. I'm growing, I'm learning to be an adult soon, so I thought by writing my irrelevant thoughts here, I can know myself better as a person. It's almost 2020, we're literally like 3 weeks away from a new decade, a new year, and 2020's gonna be a challenging year to me. It will be my final year of schooling and I will sit for the SPM examination, which is equivalent to O'-Level in other countries, and it's really important. It's the first step to achieve our dreams, and I HAVE to do well. And I thought, by writing blogs, I can see the beautiful journey of what's called life, witness myself grow as a person and capture my memories (photographs etc but I'm not really a photogenic person) and moments of life forever, here. I want to share anything that is beneficial here. Something that can help our personal growth. I'm still learning XD . Let's improve ourselves to be better persons! That should be #1 in our New Year Resolutions and 2020 goals list.

I'll write this blog in Malay and English or maybe a little bit of Manglish? I like to write my personal opinions on something in English, but I like my rant and personal posts in Malay better because it's my mother tongue language XD . Or maybe do it in Rojak, our favourite Malaysian style?

I think I want this blog to remain on private mode so I can be the only one who can read the embarrassing stuff that I read, but that would be no fun then! I've decided to make this blog public so that anyone can read my posts and access my blog (will anyone? I don't think so LMAO but whatever :D) I'm still in editing process of this blog, I think I want a pastel themed blog. Yellow colour is too harsh and aesthetically unpleasing to my eyes. It will be a while for me to familiarize myself with this blog-editing thingy again as I leave all of these things in 2014, which is like... almost 6 years ago? Hahaha XD

Ciao! <3

Bila semua orang buat open house raya and you're just there like...

Assalamualaikum ​​​​​​​

        Welp, hari ni je banyak gila open house classmates buat . But yeah, sorang pun tak ajak :'( It's not like aku rapat dengan dorang, but yeah rasa sedih gak ah . Aku memang tak rapat dengan sesiapa. Even orang pun kata aku ni banyak diam je. Yeah memang aku banyak diam je gi mana mana pun. Malas nak cakap banyak, aku lagi selesa diam and observe orang kat sekeliling aku. Kalau aku cakap banyak, kang orang sakit hati ngan aku. Yea aku sedar diri lol. 

       But yeah, at one point aku rasa cam... aku ni antisocial. Maybe? Aku takde ramai kawan, memang zero best friend. Memang those yang rapat dengan aku pun tak rapat mana pun. Seumur hidup aku , aku memang takpernah ada satu kawan yang memang rapat gilos ngan aku. Weekend aku duduk spend time sorang sorang dalam bilik tidur. Sedih weh. Rasa empty gila. Kekadang bila tengok kawan kawan rapat aku keluar spend masa sesama dorang, aku jadi jealous. Cam kekadang presence aku ni tak diappreciate pon, aku takde tinggalkan apa apa memory yang best utk orang kenang. Aku takde made apa apa mark kat life sesiapa.

       But problem dia, aku memang tak suka keluar. Aku benci gila pergi tempat public. Like seriously. Mall ke apa semua. Rasa awkward. Bukan tak nak, tapi bila aku keluar, aku rasa cam aku nak pakai purdah cover satu badan aku kecuali mata. Aku rasa insecure gila, aku taknak orang pandang aku. Yes, that's how aku describe apa yang aku rasa bila aku kat public place. Aku rasa cam lagi elok aku duduk mereput kat rumah sensorang. Aku selesa macamtu. Menangis sensorang dalam bilik. LOL HAHAHAHAH dramatic betul. But ye do, serious aku tak suka. Aku lagi suka bila takde mata yang memerhati aku. But ye lah, maybe aku insecure ni sebab aku selalu fikir camne orang pikir pasal aku. Aku suka judge diri sendiri. Maybe I should stop being too harsh on myself? But not gonna lie, memang aku ni hodoh gila. Ugly and unattractive are the best word to describe me from strangers yang first time nampak aku. Ye, tu first impression dorang. Even kalau aku selfie pun, not gonna lie lah, aku suka judge orang based on dorang punya appearence, and yes bila aku judge diri sendiri, rasa cam eww hodoh gila do dia ni. Cam wtf kenapa tu aku weh? Apa yang aku boleh buat nak ubah semua ni? Eww I hate my own body.

       See, dah jauh gila dari topic asal. Lol. But tulah weh, apa yang aku mampu buat, tengok je story kawan kawan aku gi beraya sesama dorang kat open house. And I'm here rotting in my bed. All day long. LOL. And what can I do about it? Byeeeee.